Monday, April 14, 2014

Weekend Recap

A freaking men. I love this quote!!

This last weekend was the first weekend, in a while, that was actually fun, full of activities and was generally busy.  Friday, Mike and I had a dinner date night.  We are making more of a conscience effort to get out together more - even if it's just for dinner.  So after work we headed up to Bonefish and had a couple appetizers, their famous bang bang shrimp and their decadent calamari.  I was so full from all their bread and pesto and apps that I could barely finish my soup.  After dinner, my sister in law asked if I was available to get out for a little for the heck of it.  After we picked up Vincent from my aunts and dropped him off at home with Mike, we headed to Bar Louie for girl talk and more food lol.  We tried to catch a late movie, but they ended up cancelling the flick we were planning on seeing. 

Saturday morning, Mike and I were on a mission to get our cars in shape.  It was a beautiful day out and while we cleaned, Vincent played in the back.  It felt so good to take everything out of the car, wipe down the inside, disinfect, vacuum and get a car wash.  My car seriously looks brand new - it hadnt been that clean since I first got it 5 years ago! I tend to get in the habit of living out of my car because we are always so busy! I ran some errands at Target, did some laundry, and we cooked dinner.  It was such a productive day and it felt great to knock off that item on my to-do list.

Sunday we went and saw Rio 2 with Vincent.  He did OK, but probably could afford to wait a little longer before we try again.  After the movie, we met up with my mom and dad for brunch at Leo's.  After brunch we headed back to their house and hung out.  Vincent decided to forgo his one and only nap - ugh! We went for some froyo and sat outside.  It was glorious.  After froyo, we headed over to Mike's parents and hung out there, sat outside on their glorious porch, let Vincent run around and ended up staying for dinner.

By the time we got home, Vincent was SO over it.  He was overtired, cranky, dirty from playing in the mud, hated having to take a bath even though we have to usually pry him out of the bath, kicked, screamed and overall lost his ever loving mind.  He was in bed by 745. 

I had all the best intentions to do some more laundry and be productive since we were not in the house at all - but I was pooped.  So I was in bed by 830 and out by 835.

I have a busy week ahead of me with a ton of housework, I have a company coming in to get our air ducts cleaned and I need to get some bills paid.  I cant find my planner so that is quite obnoxious - but alas, need to get my ass organized.

Hope you all have a great week!

Friday, April 4, 2014

April Goals 2014 and Other Thoughts

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I am optimistic that this month will be better than the first three months we had this year.  From death, bitter cold, sickness, germs, chaos, worry, anxious - lots of negative emotions that make me feeling super yucky at the end of the day and frankly...I. AM. SO. OVER. IT! What I really really want and need to do this month is self care.  The past three months I have put everyone and everything in the forefront, which isnt a bad thing - it had to be done.  Husband and immediate family needed me, my son needed me, my work needed me - shit just had to get done.  Did I do it well? Nope.  Not at all, there were days where by 7PM I was in bed.  Tired.  Weary.  Drained.

I'm not happy with how I handled some of the days.  Days where both my son and I would sit in front of the TV for the majority of the day.  Didn't have enough energy to cook anything for my poor husband when he came home from work.  Piles and piles of laundry both clean and dirty sat in their respective baskets.  I'd be short with both Mike and Vincent.  I remember one day I sat across the table from Vincent as he was eating away his breakfast and just burst out into tears because I wasn't being a good mother.  Vincent and I have a good routine, we can communicate well with one another, we'll engage in conversation, I ask questions he responds the best way he can.  But that wasn't happening.  I wasnt talking.  I wasnt engaging.  I was somewhere else.  Not present.  And I just felt this wave of guilt come over me.

What keeps me going is nothing bad (or good) lasts forever and this particularly trying season will end.  I am hopeful it will end sooner than later, but either way I trust God and his plan for me and my family.  Here are my goals for April

- Get a new rug for the living room 4/8/2014
- Get air ducts cleaned
- Clean out car inside outside completely including trunk 4/12/2014
- Get a manicure/pedicure
- Bust out my big camera and take more pictures.  More memories.
- Interview and hire a weekend babysitter
- Go on two dates with Mike (even if it's just dinner) (1 of 2 on 4/11 - Bonefish Grill)
- Catch up on all laundry
- Get eyebrows threaded
- Start homeschool program with Vincent (finally)
- Get to the zoo
- Get to Greenfield Village
- Go on a special Vincent + Mommy Date
- Go see a movie by myself.

Hope April is a great month for you all - stay healthy!


Monday, March 31, 2014

What I Want and What I Need


Life has been hard lately.  Unbalanced.  Chaotic.  Tragically beautiful at times.  Hard.  Full of worry.  Doubt.  And I am working really hard to change a lot of the negative.  Because my goal in life is to put nothing but positive out into the universe. 

I started coming up with this running list in my head of all the things I want and need in my life.  Here is said list:

What I Want:

- An ice cold pitcher of sangria
- A huge helping of creamy spinach and artichoke dip with warm bread for dipping
- 60 degree weather so I can open up my windows and let the cool air circulate in our home
- A spa day that includes a massage, a facial, mani and pedi
- A movie marathon day - popcorn, icee, 2-3 movies in the theater.  BLISS.
- A little extra spending money to buy a film camera and film for developing
- A day in a coffee shop with my laptop sipping espresso and writing and reading away
- A Zingermann's sandwich eaten outside in the sun with a cold lemonade
- A custard ice cream from Ritters.
- A day at the beach watching my kid play in the water, happy and smiling and laughing in the nice warm sun

What I Need:

- My kid to feel better, he has been so sick this winter.
- A good nights sleep with no interruptions and the opportunity to sleep in.
- A vacation with just Mike and I.  We are in desperate need of some quality alone time.
- A new rug for our living room. After the weekend we had, it needs to go.
- A through spring cleaning in our home.  Getting our air ducts cleaned in April, YAY!
- To go grocery shopping and stock up
- To get our landscaping in the front and back cleaned up - BAD
- A technology free weekend.   I need a weekend to unplug.
- To get all our paperwork for medical bills updated and paid off
- An opportunity to bring in a little extra money on the side. 
- To purge and clean and declutter my home - especially our basement and kitchen.
- To move Vincent into his big boy room (sob.  But i need to put it together first)
- To start getting stuff ready for baby #2 - 4 months to go.
- A good cry

I think it's funny that a lot of my wants have to do with food and drinks.  I want alcohol so bad - but I just cant and it sucks. 

I am ready for the weather to improve.  For sunnier days to take over.  For better days ahead.  What are on your lists of wants and needs?


Wednesday, March 26, 2014

The Longest Winter....Ever.

psalm 22:24 God has not ignored the suffering of the broken ones, He has listened to their cries for help.

Why did I fall off the face of the earth? Why did I stop writing? I think apart of me needed a break from online life and apart of it was because ever since November my life was slowly but surely unraveling.  That during December and the months that preceded knocked me off my feet completely leaving me dizzy and unable to get my footing.  

Watching my Nana slowly die, watching my mother(and family) have to endure it, the heartache, the stress, the feeling of complete and utter helplessness set in.  The all day nausea from my 2nd pregnancy, mixed emotions of pure elatedness of this new baby joining our growing family and sheer despair of how sick I was, was simply exhausting and how all I wanted was for my mom to come and touch my hair.  How I got out of bed at all is a miracle in itself - but then again it's amazing what you'll do when you have another tiny person, a toddler, still counting on you to keep your shit together.  We lost all our babysitters around that time due to their own personal (serious) issues they had to take care , found ourselves having to spend $500 a month on daycare, in the middle of the craziest, crappiest winter I have ever seen in my life and realized as of maybe 3 weeks ago we hadnt had a date night since our 3rd year anniversary in May.  The grey days took hold of me and made sure I stayed down.  I got into a terrible fight with whom I thought was a dear friend of mine, it came out of left field and frankly was unwarranted and completely inexcusable.  My son took two trips to the ER, has had multiple ear infections, had a stomach bug twice that got me once and my husband the other, multiple viruses and a runny nose that would not go away.  And finally, having to finally say goodbye to my Nana after months and months of suffering.  Knowing she is at peace is my only comforting thought through it all.  

My mind, my house, my life was a mess.  Everything was in disarray.  I was stuck.  But I feel like within the last month or so, I am slowly but surely coming out of the haze.  I am slowly but surely starting to feel more like myself and THANK GOD for that.  Partly due to the all day nausea going away, partly due to the sun making more of an appearance, and partly because I am forcing myself to keep moving forward.  For the last month I have been working on  getting the house organized.  Putting together to-do's again, not just for the day but for the coming months.  Grocery shopping regularly and cooking more - even though I still dont have much of an appetite by the end of the day.  I am slowly but surely making time for myself again (alone time) and i've been working hard on staying busy.  Being stagnant is not good for me.  The last half of 2013 and the first 2 months of 2014 were the toughest months I (my husband, families, etc) have endured but I am also very grateful to have gone through it.  Adversity has brought my husband and I closer, we appreciate the smaller things in life, it has opened our eyes to our finances, and made us love those around us harder and to remember to do the right thing - even if its the harder thing to do.  

I think it was appropriate to discuss the sad/dark moments of my life over the last couple months so I can again appreciate them for what they were, a particularly hard season but also a wonderful learning one as well.  I anticipate the remainder of 2014 to be a wonderful one:
1.) We have 3 weddings to go to.  Two of which are out of town, Traverse City and Toronto, Canada.  We are planning on heading to Niagra Falls the Friday before the wedding for a quick family get away.  
2.) I am investing in a business program/venture that I am SUPER excited but EXTREMELY nervous about.  I'll be helping others feel better about themselves and hopefully make a little extra pocket money to help our family.  More on that later.
3.) We will be welcoming our second son end of July and I am so SO very excited to meet this little guy.
4.) After our son makes his grand entrance I will be buckling down and shedding this baby weight from both pregnancies because going to be honest here, didnt loose much from my first.  So I will be going at it hard and focusing on my health and happiness.  I am planning on working out, eating  right and drinking a TON of H20. 

5.) Our landscaping in our front and backyard need some desperate tender loving care this spring.  After a particularly crazy 2013 we barely touched it.  We need it cleaned up, bushes trimmed,  weeds pulled, plants potted, mulch laid - the list could go on.

6.) I am in desperate need of a haircut.  The last time I got one was May of 2013.  Almost a year.  Woof.  Desperate need of a cut and color.  I am seeing more and more greys and I am NOT happy about that.  I also need an eyebrow thread...and a facial.  Hah.

Lots of exciting things going on.  I have to remind myself to keep on swimming.  I have to remind myself that I am pushing myself and my family forward.  Now that this hiatus is over, I am planning on focusing more on on this blog as well.  It's going to be a combination of every life, to-do's, favorites and more. 

Thanks for being patient with me!

Monday, December 2, 2013

December Goals

hello december 

Holy epic fail November! Man did I have all the best intentions, but sadly the month got away from me far too soon.  Here is my goals for November:

November Goals:
1.) Publish 2 articles (didn't write at all)
2.) Read (and finish) another book (picked up a book, once)
3.) Take more pictures with BIG camera (barley looked at my camera)
4.) Take a Bikram Yoga Class (fun but so hard)
5.) Clean out all Kitchen drawers/cabinets and organize (Nope not even close)
6.) Volunteer somewhere (wanted too!)
7.) Go on a DATE NIGHT with Michael (was supposed to happen on Saturday 11/30)
8.) Get a facial (NOPE!)
9.) Go on 2 new play dates with Vincent (we barely left the house this month)
10.) Create Vincent Photo Album (sorry buddy!)

The beginning and part of the middle of the month was taking care of Vincent and his ear infection/bug/walking pneumonia and the middle of the month was me getting an epic stomach bug.  We had a lot going on personally and the month was just blah so the fact that we made it is a reason to celebrate on it's own.

I love when a new month starts, new opportunities, fresh slate.  It's a great feeling.  This month is always hectic with the holidays but I am determined to be productive after a very unproductive month.  And really, it's not just because I didn't get much done on my November Goals, it was even just everyday stuff - like emptying the dishwasher, keeping up with laundry.  It all seemed like a chore. 

December Goals:
1.) Finish "Bittersweet" by Shauna Niequest
2.) Take more pictures with BIG camera
3.) Get office organized 
4.) Catch up with all mail and filing
5.) Watch favorite Christmas movies with family
6.) Bake Christmas Cookies
7.) Go to the Christmas Lights 
8.) Visit Santa
9.) Mail out Christmas Cards
10.) Pay it Forward
11.) Finish Christmas shopping by December 15th
12.) Pray everyday.  Make it intentional.
13.) Read more from daily devotional
14.) Do Advent Calendar with Vincent
15.) Have a Christmas morning breakfast for Mike and Vincent.

What are your goals for December?

Friday, November 29, 2013

30 Days of Gratitude: Wrapping It Up

hello //

Wrapping up 30 days of Gratitude this month and moving onto hopefully a more productive month in December.  November was exhausting.  November was full of heartache and sadness and drama and frustration and worry.  All emotions and feelings I strive to stay away from if I can, but all inevitable I suppose.  Despite all of this, I am still grateful.  I am blessed.  I am so fortunate for so many things in my life that when I think about all the crap going on I know for sure two things:

1.) Nothing lasts forever.
2.) It could be worse. 

These two things help me from not getting to wrapped up in the sadness.  I am intentionally working towards thinking positive thoughts so I don't get lost in a dark hole.  Some days are better than others.  But still I end the day with a grateful heart.  Here are some last minute things I want to throw out there that I am grateful/thankful for (some repeats) (no particular order):

  1.  Good Health - we may not be great all the time but I am not bed ridden and that's a blessing.
  2.  Money in our checking and savings - we may not have a lot but it's enough to live comfortably.
  3.  Family - I know I can always count on my family no matter what, they are the most supportive, trusting and respectful people I know.
  4. Michael - My husband, my best friend... he is my everything.
  5. Vincent - His smile, his sweet disposition, he makes me laugh and I love him so much.
  6. MiMi - Even tough she pooped in my kitchen this morning, she is the sweetest dog i've ever known.
  7. Our Home - A roof over our head with heating/cooling/running water.  How fortunate are we?
  8. My job - It's not always glamorous but it allows me to bring in a nice income to provide for my family.
  9. Good books - I don't always have all the time to sit down and read but I love the stack of books I can choose from when the mood strikes (or time)
  10. Technology - To keep in touch with those far away, having information at my fingertips, finding inspiration. 
  11. Laughter - it truly does make things better.
  12. Transportation - and reliable transportation at that to get me where I need to go and safely.
  13. Sunshine - I take it for granted especially on these gray winter days.
  14. Music - No matter my mood, music helps... always.
  15. Freedom of Choice - I love that I live in a place where I can choose to live my life how I want.
  16. Life Lessons - To show me things I may have not known unless I lived through something.
  17. Miracles - No matter how small or how big.  I am thankful for them.
  18. My faith - It's not always easy to understand why things happen the way they do, but my faith helps me through it.
  19. Food in our home - Grateful I have food for meals and snacks to nourish my family. 
  20. Paying it Forward - Nothing like brightening someone's day just because you can.
I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving! I will be returning Monday fresh faced and ready to take on December.


Tuesday, November 19, 2013

30 Days of Gratitude: Day 19 and Updates

A friendly reminder...

The last couple days have been a blur.  All last week I had intense pain in my neck, shoulder blades, shoulder area and parts of my back - I thought it was stress and pushing myself over the last couple of days.  I felt fine otherwise.  Friday started kind of stressful, but it wasn't anything I couldnt handle, I was out the door so fast I forgot to drink or eat anything! So after checking in at work I headed out the office for a training session I had scheduled at the branches and grabbed a coffee and a breakfast sandwich at Starbucks.   I felt good after getting something in my tummy and continued throughout my day.  After the training sessions, I headed back to the office and began to feel sick.  My appetite was gone, I felt like crawling under my desk and taking a nap and just didnt feel right.  Around 300 pm I decided to call it a day.  I headed home and went to bed for a little.  I started to feel OK so I came out and played with Vincent, hunt out with Mike and had some dinner.  Mike left for the night around 7 and I stayed home and got caught up with my DVR.  When I went to bed I started to get the shivers...BAD.  I wrapped myself up in socks, a huge sweater and even a scarf.  I even felt like I was hallucinating.  Not like your normal hallucinate, but like weird thoughts, sayings, images kept popping up in my head.  I got a fever and was a terrible mess.  I texted Mike to let him know when he comes home to set up shop on the couch because I was definitely sick.  That was a long night.

Saturday wasn't any better.  I was in and out of the bathroom all day, was hot, drank a ton of Gatorade (thanks hubs) and slept. I had another long night of not sleeping and hallucinating again.  Sigh.

Sunday I was starting to feel SOME improvements - not a lot but enough to be like, OK I think I am going to make it. 

Monday was a recovery day and it was exactly what I needed.  I took it slow, took a hot shower, put a little blush and lip gloss on, caught up our overflowing laundry.  And had one of the best nights sleep in a while.  Amen. 

Today I am working from home and Vincent had his 18 month well check up even though he is almost 20 months, lol.  He is doing awesome and so happy he is feeling better too.  After his appointment we went to Hobby Lobby and picked up our new Christmas Tree and did some shopping, grabbed some lunch and now he is taking a nap. 

I am ready to get back into our routine and start feeling better, it's been one thing after another for us and am looking forward to sunnier, healthier days ahead.

Even though I missed coming on to update my 30 days of Gratitude, I am glad I took some time for myself to heal and get better.

Today I am grateful for:

1.) Our family starting to ALL feel better, AMEN!
2.) The awesome sunny day we are having after such crappy weather this weekend.
3.) A clean, disinfected home!
4.) My amazing husband who did SO much for us this weekend while I was out sick.  He truly is one of the best people I know.
5.) My Family.  They've been there so much for us this weekend. 
6.) Fun scarves
7.) Window shopping (not literally, but things I want to buy)

Have a great Tuesday!